Picasso drew this when he was 12

We all need to be humbled. So I present this masterwork done by a 12 year old kid 120 years ago:

Sudy of a Torso, After a Plaster Cast, 1893/1894
Sudy of a Torso, After a Plaster Cast, 1893/1894

Most people don’t know of this Picasso. They only know of this Picasso:

Picasso, Portrait of a Woman
Picasso, Portrait of a Woman

Unstudied ignoramuses write this off as bullshit art by someone who can’t draw. But in fact, you are seeing a master artist so good at drawing that he aches to escape his own skills, and create something new.

Both things, his skills and his artistic drive, are beyond me. Light-years beyond me!!

But never let the lowly and humble nature of your skills stop you from using them and expressing yourself. That’s a fatal mistake of character, and is also cowardly. Do your best, strive to improve, prostrate yourself before the true Masters in reverence.

Talking to Dr. Payne / Leaving ol’ Ma Bell

One of my bestest and oldest friends is Dr. Jack Payne. One year from this month, will be the 40th anniversary of our meeting and becoming friends, as young college kids at University of Texas at Arlington. He’s a flat out genius, he’s actually Dr. Dr. Payne because he has a PhD In physics AND and an MD. I cannot express how much I admire Jack, he’s more than Ill ever be.

He’s going through some tough times right now, so, among other things, I shared with him the following story from my past. I think website readers might find it funny and inspiring, too:

My life AS global IP network engineer for ATT 1

My life AS global IP network engineer for ATT 2

You see, you don’t have to play their game by their rules, no matter who they are or what game is inside their head!! Which, by the way, is the only place their game exists. It’s all imaginary bullshit. The truth is, there are no rules, no boundaries, no limits that outside forces can impose on a free mind.

Another lesson from this tale is the awesome power of “fuck you money.”

New drawing – Kim Da Hyun (김다현) of Twice

Drawing people is the most difficult kind of realistic drawing, because the slightest flaws are easily spotted by anyone, no training needed. Even babies see them! Thank you, evolution!!

Drawing real people, from observation is another level. Imaginary people are easy by comparison. Drawing famous people is another level that opens the artist up to widespread criticism if the slightest flaws are present.

So with that, here is my first attempt at drawing Dahyun, of Kpop group Twice:

Dahyun performing with Twice, Kcon LA 2018
Dahyun performing with Twice, Kcon LA 2018

Dahyun is a lovely, talented and unbelievably hardworking girl that brings up fatherly feelings in me. I have long wished for a daughter. Perhaps one day still, I might be blessed!

Ive wanted to draw Dahyun for a long time. To be honest, this drawing is a monstrosity that didn’t know whether it wanted to be a fine line drawing or a shades and highlights drawing. There are parts of this version that are missing because I drew them in white, over a rosy background. But when posting only the top layer came across, for some reason. I need a real multilayer drawing app for this phone.

That’s another challenge with drawing pretty daughter Dahyun – she is a study in white and pink! Not easy to find actual lines inside her face. Trying to suggest them with a sharp black pencil was a failure. Dahyun’s smile is probably her most famous feature. Getting that perfect is crucial, yet I’ve failed here.

So here is this mess for now.

And here is the original video frame on my Xbox:

Dahyun performing with Twice, Kcon LA 2018
Dahyun performing with Twice, Kcon LA 2018

As you can see, my first attempt is humiliating. Poor fatherly me!

There’s an interesting note about this photo. This picture is much clearer than what was actually on the screen, what I was looking at while drawing. This Note 9’s badass camera software automagically cleaned it up!

Dahyun has the look of a classic beauty from antiquity. I am 100% certain I have seen her ancient mother recorded in sculpture. Evolutionarily successful DNA often reappears this way, and spreads through time in a population. (undergrad specialty in stratigraphy and paleontology here, thank you) This ancient girl was identical to daughter here, but centuries ago. I’m sure it was on the side of an ancient building. My image memory is honestly mind blowing. I can’t take credit for it, it was a gift, I put no effort into it. I will find this girl of antiquity for you readers. I can see her in my mind, but not sure where I saw it.

I believe this is part of the reason Dahyun is so beloved by fans, especially her Korean fans. Koreans wish to preserve their culture, Dahyun is a new generation of ancient beauty. Plus she’s a very good example of young womanhood.

She’s a very devout Christian, which I’m sure my girlfriend loves, too.

It’s funny, about the Twice girls. Dahyun, Jungyeon and Chaeyoung seem like daughters to me. Jihyo and Sana and Momo seem like wife material, especially Jihyo. The others I don’t have strong feelings either way, as of yet.

I’m not sure why I react this way to the different girls, I just know I do.

My Beautiful Girlfriend



This is Lyca, my lovely girlfriend.  Isn’t she beautiful?  How could I possibly be any luckier?  I love this girl with all my heart!








Lyca is much more than beautiful on the outside.  She is very smart and very wise.  She is kind and honest.  And most importantly, she has a beautiful and caring heart.  She cares about others and about doing right and being good.  All of this is what has captured my heart and mind!  She is why I am moving to Philippines by mid October. 

New CompSci Projects

My computer skills have been going to waste for a long time. But I have discovered some new projects that excite me:

  • Anti-Silly-Valley technology
  • My own custom android OS
  • Personal privacy and security

The number one thing I’m after right now is developing my own, pure and silly-valley free operating system for my handheld computers, AKA mobile phones.

I’m excited and motivated by the thought of bringing my own computers entirely under my personal control, as I feel they should have always been.

Consider: You pay for your computers, they are your personal property.  Yet they are, in 2018, actually surveillance and sales devices purposely programmed to act against your interests.  Another way to see it is that you have paid for devices that are programmed to extract money from you and give it to strangers, whom you don’t know or owe!!

Think on that for a while!!  I welcome debate with anyone who wishes to deny this statement!! Contact me here and I’ll publish the whole debate on this site.  Only for the foolish!!

Speaking as a long time computer scientist, network engineer, and internet entrepreneur, I’m sick of what others in these professions have done to users.   In fact sick is a perfect word, for what has been done, and for my revulsion at it.

I would truly enjoy bringing a better computing and internet world to myself and some few people who might care about such things. 

And – here’s the key – I don’t need money.  I’m not after money on this project.  I can fund it all and do it all myself, 100% independent and free to do as I wish.

I’m not totally sure just yet, what I can talk about and what I can publish of these projects.  But here’s a little tease for readers.  I’m currently sitting just off of Lake Tahoe’s south shore, and I just took this screen shot from my new Note 9:

Note 9 thinks it's in Canada, IP Address in Singapore, actual location Lake Tahoe
Note 9 thinks it’s in Canada, IP Address in Singapore, actual location Soth Lake Tahoe, California

To explain, my phone is reporting that it’s currently in British Columbia, north of Vancouver.  My ip address has me located in Singapore.  This is a taste of what I’m after, and what I want to bring everyday users with no special knowledge or skills.

I have some other ideas for handheld computers that have been cooking a while, too.  I don’t want to disclose them yet.

Travel to Manteca

Today, I’m going to Manteca, California on a mission to recover a very large, antique desk for sale that’s perfect for the home renovation project I’m working on.  On the way, Im testing out my new Samsung Galaxy Note 9, and my new “No Google, no social networking, no tracking, no recording, all privacy”  configuration of the new phone, which is also a new account on a new carrier.

So far, the gorgeous countryside of Northern California, and the all pervasive smoke from the fires in NorCal, are the superstars of this trip.

Really enjoying life

I’m too busy enjoying life to work very hard to on this website for free. But I am living a very interesting and experiential life, and I think a lot – probably too much. So I’m just gonna toss a bit of whatever I find interesting. Fragments, notes, links, pics, whatever…

Happy to live in Las Vegas

I’ve stayed in Vegas for up to 3 months at a time before, in my long card playing career. But this time, I have my own condo here, not just taking comp rooms from casinos. It has taken me a while to mentally internalize that .. I LIVE IN LAS VEGAS NOW, FINALLY!!

It’s taken me almost 10 years but I finally live here, in the most exciting, most card playing city in the USA.

I’m loving my life right now!! Established residence in Vegas, with a beautiful, young new girlfriend!! I havent been this happy in a long long time, if ever!!

I love you, Lyca!